I'm honest, I would be really glad if you would read this... this journal is about a really important matter
As some of you may realized or not, I've been very unactive in the last few months. Now that this wasn't enough, I can't even be here in the future. On august the 13, I'll be gone too. I have no problem to tell this, but I'm sick. Sick in the brain. I have two obsessive-compulsive disorder, depression and panic attacks. August 13 will be the day I go to a clinic to get help. Everything, life and internet stressed me too much. I even thought about suicide, but I have Thanatophobia (Fear of death). One of my disorders is about washing my hands very often and long. It's worse then it sounds because that gave me depression. I also feelt ignored and worthless very often, but I now take medicine to make it go away...
Even thought the people there will try to help me, I'm very scared... I don't like new things and the clinic is three hours away from home. Also don't know if I have a chance to contact you, this may be only possible for people who got my phone number. No one knows when I can come back home, but I think it takes a lot of time because I...I just can't imagine a life without this disorder. It makes me wear gloves to touch stuff to not get "dirty". But I hopefully I can draw normally again and upload it here
However, also some good news: When I come back I can finally start planned projects like the adopts for my watcher special and the ask-us thing. I also planned to do more stuff and I now know some more tricks for mspaint. BUT: I don't know if I'll come back on this account again. But you'll see. For now, that's all I wantted to tell
Enjoy life and be happy about the tiniest
good things to happen